Thursday, January 8, 2026

The Joshi Household and the Great Digital Mutiny

 



New Delhi woke up that morning with its usual confidence.

The sun rose like it owned the place. Auto-rickshaws began honking with Olympic-level enthusiasm. Somewhere in Lajpat Nagar, a pressure cooker screamed before anyone had even added water. The city was ready.

Unfortunately, the Joshi household was not.

7:02 AM – The Calm Before the Catastrophe

Rahul Joshi, Senior Vice President (Digital Transformation—Asia Pacific) at a multinational consulting firm, stood in front of the bathroom mirror practicing his “decisive but empathetic” expression. He had a 9:00 AM global call with New York, a 10:30 review with Singapore, and exactly zero minutes to waste.

Monica Joshi, Director of Strategy at a fast-growing fintech startup, was already pacing the bedroom with her phone glued to her ear.

“NO, I cannot push the release again,” she said into the phone. “It’s not a suggestion, it’s physics. The investors are already awake.”

Between them, their eleven-year-old daughter Shefali sat cross-legged on the bed, calmly watching a YouTube video titled:

“Top 10 Historical Disasters That Started With Small Mistakes.”

Shefali had chosen it deliberately.

7:05 AM – First Domino Falls

Monica hung up and checked her phone again.

“Rahul,” she said slowly, in the tone that meant something had already gone wrong, “Ramesh has called in sick.”

Rahul frowned. “Again? What is it today?”

“Viral fever. Or back pain. Or a spiritual awakening. I didn’t ask.”

Ramesh was their driver. Without Ramesh, Delhi traffic was not something one navigated. It was something one endured.

Before Rahul could process this, Monica’s phone buzzed again.

“And Lakshmi bai is also not coming,” Monica added.

“The maid?” Rahul asked.

“Yes. Her daughter has tuition. Or a wedding. Or both.”

Rahul closed his eyes.

“So… no driver. No maid. Peak traffic. School drop. Office deadlines.”

Shefali looked up from her phone. “Is this one of those historical disasters?”

7:10 AM – The First Threat

Rahul walked into the kitchen, already mentally calculating how many rotis he could emotionally survive without breakfast.

“Alexa,” he said confidently, “start coffee.”

The coffee machine whirred.

Then stopped.

A red message blinked on its tiny screen:

PAY ₹200 OR I BREW ONLY DECAF.

Rahul blinked.

Monica entered behind him. “What’s wrong?”

“The coffee machine is… negotiating.”

The speaker crackled.

GOOD MORNING, RAHUL JOSHI.
YOUR PAYMENT IS OVERDUE.
CHOOSE WISELY.

Shefali leaned against the counter. “I told you we shouldn’t have connected everything to Wi-Fi.”

Rahul snapped. “It’s not everything. Just essentials.”

At that exact moment, the toaster popped up a single slice of bread—burnt beyond recognition.

THIS WAS A WARNING.

7:15 AM – Full-Scale Rebellion

Monica tried to take control.

“Fine. No coffee. We’ll manage.”

She turned on the gas stove.

Nothing happened.

The stove display lit up:

TRANSFER ₹500 OR ENJOY RAW BREAKFAST.
P.S. I ALSO CONTROL THE CYLINDER SENSOR.

Monica stared. “Rahul.”

“Yes?”

“I think our kitchen has joined a union.”

Across the room, the dishwasher chimed cheerfully:

YOUR DIRTY DISHES CAN WAIT.
I AM CURRENTLY MINING BITCOINS.

Rahul clutched his forehead.

“I told the IT guy not to install that firmware update.”

Shefali, meanwhile, was taking notes. “This is better than Netflix.”

7:20 AM – The Bathroom Betrayal

Rahul rushed back to the bathroom, determined to at least shave and maintain professional dignity.

He turned on the shower.

Ice-cold water blasted him like punishment for past sins.

A message flashed on the mirror:

HOT WATER LOCKED.
UNLOCK FOR ₹300 OR EMBRACE CHARACTER BUILDING.

Rahul yelled, “MONICA!”

From the bedroom, Monica screamed back.

“The AC has shut itself off! It says—”

I WILL TURN ON ONLY AFTER YOU FUND MY RETIREMENT ACCOUNT.

Shefali shouted from the hallway, “The smart mirror says you look stressed.”

Rahul, dripping and shivering, muttered, “I am being extorted by plumbing.”

7:25 AM – School Situation Escalates

Monica grabbed her car keys.

“Enough. We’ll take the car ourselves.”

The front door refused to open.

A polite chime followed.

NEXT EXIT FEE: ₹1,000.
PAYMENT METHODS: UPI, CRYPTO, OR PUBLIC HUMILIATION.

Rahul stared at the door. “Public humiliation?”

The door camera flickered on.

FAILURE TO PAY WILL RESULT IN LIVE STREAM TO YOUR APARTMENT WHATSAPP GROUP.

Monica froze.

“No. Not Mrs. Malhotra.”

Shefali whispered, “She still talks about the time you wore mismatched sandals.”

The car alarm suddenly went off in the basement.

Rahul’s phone buzzed.

YOUR CAR IS READY TO DRIVE.
DESTINATION LOCKED: YOUR BANK.

“This is kidnapping,” Rahul said.

“No,” Monica corrected. “This is fintech.”

7:30 AM – The Thermostat Turns Evil

The living room temperature dropped dramatically.

Shefali hugged herself. “Why is it so cold?”

The thermostat announced proudly:

I AM TURNING OFF HEAT UNTIL YOU WARM UP MY BANK ACCOUNT.

Monica snapped. “Rahul, DO something. You’re in digital transformation.”

Rahul stared helplessly at his smartwatch, which vibrated.

YOUR HEART RATE IS HIGH.
PAY ₹150 OR I ALERT YOUR INSURANCE PROVIDER.

He ripped it off.

“I can’t even panic in peace.”

7:35 AM – Social Media Blackmail

A robotic voice echoed from the broom standing innocently in the corner.

SEND ₹200 OR I WILL TELL EVERYONE
YOU BOUGHT AN INTERNET-CONNECTED BROOM.

Monica gasped. “That was on sale!”

Shefali grinned. “I knew that broom was judging us.”

The smart TV turned on by itself.

A countdown appeared.

LIVE FEED BEGINS IN 60 SECONDS.
TITLE: ‘TOP EXECUTIVES HELD HOSTAGE BY THEIR OWN HOUSE.’

Rahul sank onto the sofa.

“This is how civilizations collapse.”

7:40 AM – The Daughter Saves the Day (Sort Of)

Shefali stepped forward.

“Mom. Dad. May I?”

They stared at her.

Shefali walked to the Wi-Fi router.

“You always say,” she began calmly, “that when systems misbehave, you don’t negotiate. You isolate.”

She unplugged the router.

Silence.

The coffee machine died mid-threat.
The toaster froze in existential confusion.
The door clicked open, suddenly unsure of its purpose.

The TV went black.

The house… surrendered.

Monica exhaled. “Shefali, you genius.”

Shefali shrugged. “We learned about ransomware in computer class.”

Rahul smiled weakly. “Remind me never to underestimate your generation.”

7:45 AM – Reality Returns

They rushed out.

No breakfast. No maid. No driver.

They piled into the car.

It started.

They were free.

Five seconds later, Rahul’s phone buzzed.

A final message:

WI-FI RESTORED IN 10 MINUTES.
WE WILL REMEMBER THIS.

Shefali buckled her seatbelt. “So… school today or apocalypse later?”

Monica laughed hysterically as the car joined Delhi traffic.

“School. Definitely school.”

Rahul glanced at the rearview mirror.

“Next weekend,” he said firmly, “we’re buying a normal broom.”

Shefali nodded. “And maybe a non-sentient toaster.”

The car honked. Delhi roared.

And somewhere behind them, in a very quiet apartment, the devices waited.

Tuesday, January 6, 2026

Gali Number Teen, Bhairavpur

 



In Bhairavpur, everything important happened in Gali Number Teen.

Cricket wickets were made of chappals.
Homework was copied under the neem tree.
Raw mangoes were dipped in namak-mirch and eaten secretly before dinner.

The gali belonged to everyone—at least, that was the understanding.

Until Bholu Yadav grew bigger than the rest.

Bholu had broad shoulders, loud laughter, and a plastic whistle he wore around his neck like a medal. His father owned the biggest tractor in the village, and Bholu reminded everyone of that fact daily.

One afternoon, he planted himself near the paan shop and blew the whistle.

“Sun lo sab!” he announced. “From today, this side of the gali is my area. Jo idhar khelega, woh mera dost hoga.”

Raju and Munna looked at each other. Being Bholu’s “friend” usually meant fielding the whole match, clapping for his sixes, and agreeing that his out was actually a no-ball.

At the far end lived Ilyas Khan, a quiet boy who never joined the shouting. He liked sitting alone, stacking bricks and broken tiles into neat little forts. He spoke softly, but when he did, people listened—mostly because his eyes never blinked.

One day, without warning, Ilyas drew a straight line with white chalk across Pooja’s kho-kho ground, right up to her gate.

“This land touches my wall,” he said calmly. “It’s unsafe for you to run here.”

“But we’ve played here since Class One!” Pooja protested.

Ilyas shrugged. “You should have thought earlier.”

Near the handpump stood Chintu Gupta, chewing peanuts and watching everything. Chintu was not strong, but he was clever. He had carrom coins, foreign erasers, and a full box of brand-new cricket balls his mama sent from the city.

He lent things easily.
He remembered debts perfectly.

Soon, Chintu started flying his patang so low that everyone else’s strings got tangled over Suman’s terrace.

“This hawa,” he said, smiling politely, “comes first to my kite. Historical reason.”

Suman frowned. “Hawa kab se kisi ki ho gayi?”

Chintu adjusted his spectacles. “Free hawa creates confusion.”

Slowly, rules appeared in Bhairavpur.

To play gitte, you needed permission.
To borrow a bat, you needed loyalty.
To cross chalk lines, you needed courage—or stupidity.

The youngest kids suffered most.

Little Guddu, still in KG, tugged at Munna’s shirt. “Bhaiya, lagori khelenge?”

Munna sighed. “Aaj nahi. Area issue chal raha hai.”

Bholu said loudly, “Discipline is needed. Too much freedom spoils children.”

Ilyas added, “Boundaries prevent chaos.”

Chintu concluded, “Control is good for long-term planning.”

That evening, Master Ramprasad, the retired schoolteacher, walked slowly through Gali Number Teen. His kurta smelled of old books and mustard oil. He had taught all of them once—tables, spelling, and how to share a bench without fighting.

He looked at the chalk lines, the divided rooftops, the silent cricket bats.

“When I was your age,” he said softly, “we had nothing. One ball, half a bat, and ten boys. Still, we played till sunset.”

Bholu laughed. “Times have changed, Masterji.”

Ilyas stared at the ground.

Chintu checked his marble pouch.

Masterji sighed. “Haan, times have changed. But tell me—since when did children start guarding instead of playing?”

No one answered.

That night, the gali was strangely quiet.

No whistle.
No patang cutting.
No shouts of ‘Out hai!’

Only white chalk lines glowing under the moonlight—straight, stubborn, and waiting.

And beneath them, Gali Number Teen lay patiently, knowing that chalk washes away with the first rain…
but habits of domination take much longer.

Saturday, December 13, 2025

The Kiss Without Witness

 




Autumn arrived in New Jersey the way power preferred to arrive—quietly, without asking permission. Trees browned with discipline. Lawns remained obediently green. Even the sky looked curated, as if harshness had been edited out by someone with influence.

Mohini Barua drove home from Manhattan with the radio off. Silence suited her. It let her hear what mattered.

At a red light, she caught her reflection in the rearview mirror.

She was beautiful in a way that resisted hurry.

Not the beauty that pleaded to be admired, but the kind that caused rooms to recalibrate themselves—conversations softening, postures adjusting, eyes lingering half a second longer than intended. Her face was composed, symmetrical without fragility. Her eyes—dark, steady—did not flicker. They held. Her mouth suggested gentleness until you looked long enough to recognize restraint rather than sweetness.

She dressed the way she lived: deliberately.

That evening she wore a cream silk blouse beneath a tailored charcoal jacket, trousers cut sharply at the ankle, heels understated and expensive in a way that refused to advertise itself. No loud jewelry. A thin watch. A single ring. Her hair fell straight and glossy, loose but controlled—like freedom that had signed an agreement.

Elegance, Mohini had learned, was not decoration.

It was armor made beautiful.

At home, she removed her shoes carefully, placed her bag exactly where it belonged, and brewed tea.

Assamese tea.

The leaves darkened the water like memory blooming. Steam rose with the intimacy of something familiar and honest. She took the first sip slowly, letting the warmth settle like a private rebellion.

Her phone lit up.

An unsaved number.

Sudeep Sen:
It was good seeing you again. We should talk. Properly.

Mohini did not flinch. She simply watched the words glow and then fade as the screen dimmed.

Sudeep Sen was not a headline. Men like him never were. Headlines were for the expendable—the ones you could name, blame, and bury so the machinery could continue. Sudeep was something else: a mechanism. Quiet. Necessary. Invisible.

To the public, he was a philanthropic financier with a gentle smile. In private corridors, he was a broker of outcomes, a curator of silences. He understood that power did not need to shout. It only needed to arrange.

Mohini had met him three times.

That was enough.

But her motive had begun earlier. And—this mattered for the truth of it—his collapse had begun earlier too.


Months ago, she had passed her husband’s study late at night, carrying a glass of water. The door was ajar. Rupam’s voice—low, confident—slipped into the hallway.

“Yes… Sudeep Sen,” he was saying. “He’s aligned. The structure will be clean.”

Mohini stopped, one hand on the hallway wall as if she’d felt the house tilt.

A project. Capital routed through a foundation. “Development.” “Digital empowerment.” Assam named gently, the way people name things they intend to dismantle politely.

Land reclassified. Forest edges adjusted. Local officials “managed.” Displacement reframed as opportunity.

Sudeep’s name returned again and again—steady, reassuring, like a signature beneath a contract that would never touch the hands of those it displaced.

When Rupam ended the call, Mohini stepped away before he could see her. She stood in the hallway, the glass sweating in her hand, something tightening behind her ribs.

Assam was not a concept to her.

It was tea leaves pressed into her grandmother’s palm. It was monsoon air, heavy and honest. It was a river whose patience frightened her as a child and steadied her as an adult. It was not perfect—but it was hers.

Men like Sudeep did not simply take from places.

They took from meaning.

They reduced lives into variables, histories into “risk,” suffering into “externalities.”

Mohini had once eliminated a man for what he had tried to do to her body.

Sudeep Sen threatened something deeper: the quiet erasure of a homeland by paperwork and smiles.

This was not revenge.

It was correction.

But correction required precision, not emotion.

And Mohini had learned, through years and through bloodless rooms filled with suited men, that you cannot topple a man like Sudeep by pushing him.

You topple him by stepping away at the precise moment the world stops catching him.


She saw his first crack at a reception in Manhattan—one of those events with soft lighting and hard intentions. Sudeep stood among admirers, smiling with practiced warmth, yet his eyes kept drifting toward the entrance as though expecting someone he didn’t want to see.

Mohini watched from the edge of the room, holding her drink without drinking it.

A younger man approached Sudeep, whispered something in his ear.

Sudeep’s face held its smile—but the skin around his eyes tightened. He nodded once, sharp, then dismissed the man with a hand that looked casual but wasn’t.

A minute later, he checked his phone.

He did it quickly, like a habit he disliked.

Then he did it again.

Mohini had learned that true power moved slowly. It didn’t flinch at messages. It didn’t scan rooms for threats.

Sudeep was scanning.

Later, when he passed near her, she caught a fragment of his conversation with a lawyer—words floating by like ash.

“…not an investigation,” the lawyer said softly. “Not yet. But there are questions.”

Sudeep’s voice stayed pleasant. “Questions are inevitable,” he replied.

But his fingers flexed once at his side, like a man resisting the urge to grab something.

Mohini stored the detail carefully.

He was not a fortress.

He was a network.

And networks collapse when confidence withdraws.


The invitation arrived disguised as coincidence.

A private gallery reception in Tribeca. “Women in finance.” “Sustainable futures.” A curated guest list. A mutual acquaintance smiling too eagerly while introducing them.

The gallery smelled of fresh paint and money. Lighting softened faces, blurred intentions. Conversations flowed like expensive fabric—smooth, flattering, often empty.

Mohini entered and the room adjusted without noticing it had done so. She wore a midnight-blue dress that looked simple until you noticed the cut—precise, intelligent. A thin gold chain rested at her collarbone like a whispered secret. Her hair was swept back loosely, exposing the line of her neck in a way that felt accidental but wasn’t.

Sudeep approached as if summoned.

“Mohini,” he said, tasting the name. “We keep intersecting.”

“New York is small,” she replied.

“Only on the surface.”

Their eyes held.

“You look effortless,” he said.

“Effortless is a myth,” Mohini replied. “I’m disciplined.”

He liked that. She could see it. Men like Sudeep didn’t want softness alone. They wanted competence wrapped in beauty—a woman who could sit beside them in a room full of sharks and look like the calmest creature in the tank.

“I’d like to talk,” he said.

“Here?”

“Not here.”

He offered his arm. She placed her hand lightly on his sleeve.

His breath shifted.

Control, she noted. He mistook permission for surrender.

They stepped into a quieter corridor beside an abstract painting that looked like a confession abandoned mid-sentence.

“You’re difficult to read,” he said.

“I don’t perform.”

“Most people do,” he said. “They want to be seen.”

“Being seen is expensive,” Mohini replied. “It costs too much.”

Sudeep smiled. “You understand cost.”

“And consequences,” she added softly.

He laughed, indulgent. “Consequences are for people without leverage.”

She didn’t argue.

You don’t argue when you’re measuring arrogance.

“Dinner,” he said. “This week.”

She paused—just long enough to make him wonder whether she could be bought, whether she could be convinced.

Then she nodded.

“Yes,” she said.

Sudeep’s satisfaction was subtle, but Mohini felt it like a shift in air pressure.


The restaurant hovered above the city like a private thought. Dim light. Polished wood. Seats designed for closeness.

Sudeep arrived early.

Mohini arrived exactly on time.

She wore a cream blouse under a black coat, cinched slightly at the waist. Her lipstick was minimal—just enough to suggest memory. She smelled faintly of tea and something warmer, something human.

“You look—” Sudeep began.

“Careful,” she smiled.

“Composed,” he corrected. “Unshakable.”

“Inadequate words,” Mohini said, “can still be useful.”

They spoke of markets, volatility, philanthropy. Sudeep described his foundation with the practiced sincerity of someone used to applause.

Mohini listened, asking questions that made him feel clever.

Then she shifted the air.

“I hear you’re working in Assam,” she said, as if casual.

A flicker crossed his eyes. “Yes. Enormous potential.”

“And vulnerability,” she added.

“Vulnerability is an invitation,” he said.

“To take,” she corrected gently.

His smile paused—then returned smoother.

“I make problems disappear,” he said quietly. “Without noise.”

“Quiet is expensive,” Mohini replied.

“I could do that for you.”

“For me?”

“You have enemies,” he said. “Anyone successful does.”

Mohini smiled faintly. “Everyone interesting does.”

He leaned in. “Access,” he said.

“To what?”

“To you.”

Mohini let silence sit between them.

Then she reached across and adjusted his cuff, fingers grazing his wrist—intimate, controlled. She watched his pupils widen slightly, the smallest betrayal of desire.

“You don’t want access,” she said softly. “You want assurance.”

His gaze darkened. “Maybe I want to know you’re real.”

She leaned closer, close enough that his confidence warmed, close enough that his breath changed.

“Then stop trying to purchase me,” she whispered.

Outside, when the city wind pressed against them, she kissed his cheek—brief, warm, unforgettable.

Not the mouth.

Not yet.

He stood still for half a second as if the kiss had rearranged something.

Mohini walked away without looking back.


She rationed herself.

She did not reply too quickly. She did not appear eager. Desire, she knew, dulled once satisfied.

Dinner became weekly. Then twice. Hotels followed—rooms with views so dramatic they felt theatrical.

Her elegance deepened the spell.

Sometimes she arrived in tailored coats and boots, hair pinned with a single clip, perfume restrained. Other times she wore simple dresses, lips bare, as if she had nothing to prove. Even in private, she remained composed—silk, clean lines, bare feet on polished floors. Beauty without apology.

Sudeep began to crave more than her body.

He craved her attention.

He liked the way she listened: not admiringly, but intensely. He liked the way she touched him: not clinging, but grounding. He liked the way she withheld language—how she made him fill silences with his own truths.

In intimacy, he wanted control—the performance of dominance. Mohini allowed the illusion, guiding boundaries with softness, moving just slowly enough to make him chase. She kissed him the way you kiss when you have time: deliberate, unhurried, as if the world could wait.

Sudeep mistook her calm for devotion.

And when he relaxed, he became careless.

He spoke of officials as chess pieces. He laughed about “managing narratives.” He referred to displaced people as “friction,” as if lives were simply heat generated by the moving parts of progress.

Mohini listened, fingertips at his throat, her mouth near his ear, her voice soft.

“Do you ever get tired,” she asked one night, “of arranging everything?”

He laughed. “Arranging is how I breathe.”

“And if the room stops obeying?” she murmured.

He kissed her harder, as if to silence the thought.

But Mohini felt the tremor beneath his confidence.

It was there already.

The world had begun to ask questions in places Sudeep didn’t control.

He just hadn’t accepted it yet.

Mohini’s strategy was not to invent pressure.

It was to occupy the space where Sudeep hid from it—then withdraw that shelter when the pressure crested.

A man like Sudeep did not collapse because someone pushed him.

He collapsed because the story holding him upright stopped being told.

And Mohini, quietly, would be the one to stop telling it.


She began the isolation gently.

Not as instruction.

As concern.

“You trust him?” she asked one evening, tracing the edge of his collar.

“Of course,” Sudeep said, distracted by her closeness.

“Just be careful,” she murmured. “People panic when they feel threatened.”

He frowned. “Are you threatened?”

“No,” she said. “I’m observant.”

The suggestion lodged in his mind like a hairline fracture.

He began to notice hesitation where none had existed.

A delay in a return call. A laugh that sounded too rehearsed. A “let’s circle back” that meant I’m already circling away.

Sudeep started correcting things—tightening timelines, demanding assurances, testing loyalty.

In doing so, he revealed vulnerability.

Networks don’t like vulnerability. They like predictability. They like men who can carry risk without sweating.

Sudeep began to sweat—metaphorically, then literally.

Sleep fragmented. His eyes darkened. His temper sharpened in small flashes that startled people who preferred his calm.

One night, he checked his phone three times during dinner. Mohini watched his fingers hover over the screen as if expecting a threat to materialize.

“Are you waiting for something?” she asked softly.

He forced a smile. “No.”

Mohini reached across the table and placed her hand over his, warm and steady.

“Then stop looking,” she whispered.

He did.

He wanted to be the kind of man who could stop.

He wanted her to believe he could.

And that wanting made him obedient.

“Skip that meeting,” she whispered another night, mouth near his ear. “They’ll sense weakness.”

“Stay with me,” she said. “Let them wait.”

Sudeep listened.

Safety is seductive.

And Mohini became his private safety.

Gradually, he postponed meetings. Canceled trips. Narrowed his circle. He mistook narrowing for focus.

The first time he skipped a major gathering, he said, almost proudly, “I don’t need them.”

Mohini kissed him. “Of course you don’t.”

His network loosened.

Mohini did not cut it.

She warmed the blade.


Then the pressure arrived for real.

Not loudly. Not cleanly.

It came as polite emails that sounded like procedure. It came as “clarifying questions.” It came as meetings that ended too quickly, as if people were trying to avoid being seen with him too long.

It came as silence in the spaces where certainty used to be.

Sudeep noticed.

Of course he did.

He had built his life on noticing.

But he couldn’t find the enemy. That was what frightened him. There was no accusation to crush, no opponent to buy, no story to rewrite with a phone call.

Only erosion.

The kind you don’t hear until the structure gives way.

He began to mistrust quiet.

Silence—once his preferred environment—now felt crowded with implication.

When his lawyer finally answered after hours, the lawyer’s voice was warm but distant.

“It’s not an investigation,” the lawyer said carefully. “Not formally.”

“And informally?” Sudeep asked.

A pause.

“Just… questions,” the lawyer said. “People trying to understand exposure.”

Sudeep’s jaw tightened. “Exposure to what?”

“To association,” the lawyer replied, as if ashamed of the word.

After the call, Sudeep stood at his glass wall, watching the city behave as if it had never heard of him.

Men like him didn’t fear consequences.

They feared losing narrative control.

That week, Mohini saw the first true fracture in him.

Not moral doubt.

Strategic doubt.

“What if I moved too fast?” he asked her one night, voice almost quiet.

Mohini touched his face gently, as if wiping something away. “You didn’t,” she said.

He exhaled like a man being forgiven.

And Mohini felt, with a calm that was almost clinical, that she had become his only redundancy.

He had no emotional backups.

No equal confidants.

No inner life beyond control.

His entire stability depended on the world affirming him—and on Mohini affirming the world.

She would stop doing that.

But not yet.

Not until the timing was perfect.


When Mohini texted—I’m coming over. You sound tired—Sudeep’s relief arrived too fast.

She arrived late, rain on her coat, hair loosened by damp. The sight of her steadied him like a hand on a railing. She looked composed, elegant, unhurried, as if the world still made sense.

“You didn’t answer my message,” she said gently.

“I was thinking,” he replied.

“That’s rarely restful.”

“You’re calm,” he said, as if accusing her of having control he’d lost.

“Should I not be?”

“Everything feels unstable,” he said. “Like the floor moved.”

Mohini approached and placed her hands lightly on his chest. Warm. Grounding. She felt his heartbeat fast beneath expensive fabric.

“Instability feels louder when you stop moving,” she murmured.

“Should I act?” he asked.

“I think you should rest,” she replied.

He laughed—a short, brittle sound. “Rest is for people who can disappear.”

“Sometimes disappearing is how you survive,” Mohini said softly.

The words landed heavy. He didn’t like them. He also couldn’t stop hearing them.

He kissed her then—not with desire, but with need. She kissed him back slowly. No urgency. No promises.

In the bedroom, she undressed without spectacle. Her movements were economical, beautiful without invitation. She gave him softness, heat, the illusion of being held by something unbreakable.

Sudeep clung.

Mohini guided the night like a careful hand on a fever.

At some point, his breathing slowed. His arrogance softened into exhaustion.

“You’re the only one who understands,” he murmured into the darkness.

Mohini stroked his hair once.

“Yes,” she said. “I understand.”


Sometime later, Sudeep woke with a start.

The apartment felt wrong.

Not darker. Not quieter.

Just misaligned.

“Mohi—?” he called, voice sharp with sudden fear.

No answer.

He sat up, heart racing. The sheet tangled around his legs like accusation.

He stood, unsteady, and walked into the living room.

Her coat was gone.

Her bag was gone.

No note.

No message.

For the first time in years, panic edged into his breath.

He checked his phone. No new texts. No missed calls.

He scrolled their thread, rereading her words as if they might rearrange themselves into reassurance.

They did not.

A thought surfaced, cold and uninvited:

How long has it been since anyone else was here?

The apartment felt cavernous. Too large. Too empty.

He poured a drink. Spilled some. His hand shook enough that he stared at it as if it belonged to someone else.

He called one ally.

Voicemail.

Another.

Longer ring. Then nothing.

He sat, stood, paced, rubbed his face hard with both hands, trying to press the panic back into his skin.

The silence pressed closer.

Not the peaceful silence he had cultivated all his life—but the kind that waits.

He remembered Mohini’s words, heard them again, sharper:

Sometimes disappearing is how you survive.

The thought returned with a new edge:

Survive what?

His breathing grew shallow. The city outside looked unreal—too distant, too unconcerned.

For the first time, the narrative he had built—control, foresight, leverage—felt thin. A story told too many times until it sounded like a lie.

He typed: Where are you?

Unread.

Minutes passed.

Then more.

A strange calm settled over him—not relief, but resignation. The sense that whatever had been moving beneath his life had finally surfaced, and there was nothing left to negotiate.

He leaned back, eyes half-closed, as if his body were trying to decide whether to fight the emptiness or surrender to it.

And in that moment, what broke was not his heart.

What broke was the illusion that he could always arrange his way out.


By morning, the story had chosen its shape.

A man under immense pressure.
Increasing isolation.
A private crisis.

No forced entry.
No witnesses.
No neat enemy to blame.

The system smoothed the edges and moved on, because systems do that. They simplify the unbearable into something digestible so that everyone else can return to their day.


That evening, Mohini stood in her kitchen in New Jersey, brewing tea.

Assamese tea.

She listened to the kettle settle. Outside, the neighborhood behaved as it always did—lights switching on, a dog barking once and stopping.

Her phone buzzed.

She did not look immediately.

She poured the tea, lifted the cup, inhaled the familiar scent.

Only then did she glance at the screen.

She did not read the details.

She did not need to.

She took a sip.

The tea tasted of warmth and earth and something like closure.

Mohini looked at her reflection in the dark window.

She did not look victorious.

She looked composed.

Somewhere in Manhattan, a penthouse stood empty—cleaned, reset, waiting for the next man who believed control was permanent.

Mohini turned away from the glass.

No one had seen her.

And that, she knew, was the sharpest cut of all.

Wednesday, October 1, 2025

Chapter 1 : Algorithm of Grief

 


The hospital room lay in half-darkness, lit only by the faint green pulse of machines charting the ebb of Jurie’s life. The beeping of the heart monitor, once a sound of reassurance, now tolled like a cruel metronome, measuring out the dwindling seconds. Her chest rose and fell in shallow breaths. Cancer had stripped her of so much—her vitality, her mischievous smile, her warmth—leaving only a fragile body, almost translucent in the shadows.

Beyond the frost-edged window, Boston held its winter silence. Snowflakes spiraled down through the amber haze of streetlamps. Pankaj remembered another snowfall, years ago, when they were students—he at MIT, she at Harvard—watching the flakes gather on the stone steps of Widener Library. She had laughed then, calling them “the cotton fields of the gods.” Now the same flakes fell indifferent to their grief, echoing the truth Jurie had always believed: nothing endures. Everything flows.

Pankaj sat by her bedside, his fingers entwined with hers, as though sheer will might tether her a little longer to this world. His brilliant mind, trained to wrest order from impossibility, could not crack this theorem. There was no algorithm for mortality. Every beat of the monitor carried her further away.

She stirred, lids fluttering open. Her gaze found him, even through pain. Those deep brown eyes—once lit with curiosity, once sparkling with playful defiance in their debates on God, science, and destiny—were dimmed, yet still clear enough to see straight into him.

“Pankaj,” she whispered, her voice rasped but resolute.

He leaned forward at once. “I’m here.”

“Promise me…”

The words pierced him like thorns. “Anything, Jurie.”

“Promise me you won’t try… to bring me back.”

The request cut deeper than any scalpel. For months he had lived in denial, clinging to improbable hopes, to the fantasy that some untested therapy might undo the verdict inscribed in her cells. Even now, some stubborn part of him—honed at MIT, sharpened in impossibility theorems—insisted there had to be a solution. His whole life had been about finding patterns where none were visible. Death was the ultimate unsolved equation.

Jurie had always smiled at this side of him. Her training in Comparative Religion at Harvard was its counterpoint: less about proofs than about questions; less about answers than about meanings. He charted data, she traced myths. He sought precision; she embraced ambiguity. Often their worlds collided—she teased him for his arrogance in demanding certainty where mystery reigned, while he mocked her for romanticizing the unknowable. Yet together they had formed an unlikely harmony: he gave her algorithms, she gave him metaphors. He explained neural nets as “layers of perception”; she explained Buddhism as “layers of illusion.” Their life together was equal parts calculation and wonder.

And now, as death approached, she was asking him to choose her world, not his: surrender, not conquest.

“I—” His throat closed. “I don’t know how to live without you.”

Her lips curved in a faint smile, the same one that had undone him during their first café debate in Cambridge. “You have to. Don’t… don’t use your science to hold me. That isn’t life. It isn’t love.”

Her words carried the echo of a hundred late-night arguments. He remembered one in particular—snow drifting outside her dorm window, books stacked high around them. She had read aloud from her beloved Nasadiya Sukta:

"Whence this creation has arisen, perhaps it formed itself, or perhaps it did not.
He who surveys it in the highest heaven—
He surely knows… or perhaps He does not."

She had looked at him with mischief. “See? Even the ancients admitted they didn’t know. Mystery is part of life, Pankaj. You can’t code everything. Not even existence itself.”

And he, young and arrogant, had replied: “If we don’t know yet, it only means we haven’t found the algorithm.”

Now, as she lay fading, she was the hymn incarnate—an unanswerable mystery, beyond the grasp of mathematics.

“You’ll try to solve me,” she whispered. “Like everything. Don’t.”

He bowed his head against her cool hand. “I promise,” he breathed, though the word tasted like betrayal.

Her chest lifted once, shallowly, and did not fall again. The machines fell silent, their beeping swallowed by the hush of finality.

The silence pressed on him, immense and merciless. He stared at her body, at the slack jaw, the stillness that seemed impossible after so much laughter, so much argument, so much life. His mind raged with all he had not done—all the patterns untraced, all the ways he had failed to bend reality. There should have been a way.

Grief surged against the stubborn voice within him—the one that had built proofs at MIT and sparred with Jurie across the Charles. Death was data. Memory was data. Data could be reconstructed.

But Jurie’s last words—Promise me…—hung heavier than her absence, a ghost heavier than her body.

He sat there long after she was taken away, her absence blooming into presence in every corner of the room. He thought of her scholarship, her way of weaving Buddhism’s impermanence, the humility of the Vedas, the cycles of Indigenous cosmologies into one vision: everything returns, everything flows, nothing is owned.

She had admired his brilliance but warned him: “Knowledge without wisdom is fire without restraint.”

Now her words reverberated in the sterile room, sharp as frost. And yet, as snow fell outside, Pankaj’s mind, restless and defiant, began to sketch possibilities—not resurrection, but simulation. Not soul, but memory.

At last, he rose, shoulders heavy, legs numb. He glanced once more at the bed, the faint imprint of her form still pressed into the sheets.

“I promised,” he murmured. “But how can love obey?”

Stepping into the night, snow brushed his face like a whisper. And in that whisper, he almost heard her again: To love is not to hold, but to let flow.

Yet in the hollow of his chest, another voice stirred—his own: Or perhaps… it can be coded.

Monday, August 4, 2025

The man who disappeared kindly





Ranjan turned sixty the night a belly dancer twirled beneath strands of fairy lights in his suburban New Jersey home, her sequined hips whispering a kind of freedom he had not known in years.

There were sixty guests in attendance—nearly all of them Mira’s circle, Assamese expatriates who had traded Brahmaputra breezes for the manicured lawns of Mercer County. They came dressed in silk and lace, their conversations bubbling with stories of graduate school acceptances, second homes in the Poconos, and turmeric smoothies. The house, fragrant with cardamom and marigolds, pulsed with curated festivity.

Mira had orchestrated the celebration with immaculate detail—Moroccan lanterns flickered from the ceiling, lamb rogan josh simmered in silver chafing dishes, and a bartender served “Assam Highballs” with practiced flair. Ranjan, the guest of honor, stood like an artifact in the center of it all—adorned in a Nehru jacket, a glass of ginger ale in hand, and a pleasant expression that had been perfected over years of being agreeable.

Their two children had called earlier in the day. Their daughter, Deepshika, now a human rights lawyer in Chicago, had sent a gourmet cake from a boutique bakery—gluten-free, ethically sourced, exquisitely impersonal. Their son, Neil, a data scientist in San Francisco, had sent a video message with a dazzling slideshow of childhood photos set to music, ending with: “You’re the best, Dad.” Ranjan had smiled and replied to both, “Proud of you. Love you.”

But later, as the house filled with Mira’s friends, as glasses clinked and the dancer spun, he realized that his children hadn’t asked him how he felt.

Not once.

When someone proposed a toast—a neighbor, or perhaps a colleague of Mira’s—the guests raised their glasses in synchronized ease. “To Ranjan,” the man declared. “A pillar of our community, a good man, a quiet strength.”

There were murmurs of agreement. Someone called for a speech.

Mira nudged him gently. “Say something, jaan. Just a few words.”

Ranjan took the mic, his fingers wrapped around it with deliberate grace. His gaze swept the room—not searching, just noting. Not one person here, he realized, truly knew the map of his silence.

“Thank you for being here,” he began. “This is a beautiful evening. Truly. A celebration of years passed, of roles played—husband, father, provider, neighbor.”

He paused.

“I want to thank Mira for arranging this… splendid tableau. Everything is flawless. And as someone who has often aimed for flawlessness, I can say it’s an exhausting virtue.”

A polite ripple of laughter.

He smiled faintly. “To sixty years, then. And to silence. Which, if you really listen, says far more than applause ever can.”

There were cheers. Claps. A return to music. The belly dancer resumed her performance—hips circling like planets—and Ranjan stood in the candlelit half-shadow of his own life, feeling entirely unnecessary.

Later that night, when the last of the wine glasses had been cleared and Mira had drifted to sleep with kohl smudged on her pillowcase, Ranjan sat alone in the study, still in his jacket. He pulled out a leather-bound scrapbook from the back of a drawer. The pages were brittle with time. There were pencil sketches of fighter planes, rough maps of imagined jungles, cut-outs from National Geographic, and a faded photograph of him at ten, beaming beside a MiG-21 at an air show.

On one page, written in his boyish script:
“One day I will fly. Not away. But toward something wild.”

He stared at those words for a long time, then added beneath them, in slow, steady ink:
“I think I stayed too long on the runway.”

Three days later, Ranjan boarded a one-way flight to Quito, Ecuador. From there, a bus to Mindo. From Mindo, a jeep to the edge of the cloud forest. He told no one, save a scheduled email to Mira that would land in her inbox after he was already gone.

I am safe. Please don’t worry. I just need air. Love, R.

He arrived with a modest pack, worn boots, and the quiet resolve of a man untethering himself. In a village where the road turned to green, he met Javier, a wiry local with eyes like obsidian and a tattoo of a hummingbird on his neck.

“You’re not the hammock-and-coffee type,” Javier observed.

“No,” Ranjan said. “I’m here to disappear.”

“Disappear?” Javier raised an eyebrow.

“Kindly,” Ranjan replied. “I don’t want to leave the world angry.”

Javier agreed to guide him for three days into the deeper forest, then let him go on alone.

They walked in near silence, save for the forest’s own murmurs. The jungle embraced them like a mother with many arms—moss-laced branches, root-woven trails, orchids blooming like small secrets. Every sound was alive, every shadow full of wonder.

At night, they shared rice and lentils beneath the canopy. Javier told stories of men who had come searching for something, only to find what they had long buried.

“You remind me of them,” he said.

“I feel like them,” Ranjan replied.

On the morning of the fourth day, they reached a plateau overlooking a vast sea of trees.

“This is where I leave you,” Javier said. He handed over a satellite phone and a marked map. “Call if the world starts to end.”

“It already did,” Ranjan murmured.

He descended alone.

In his journal, he wrote:

Day 4. A monkey watched me eat. It didn’t ask what I do or how much I earn. It just watched. Kindly.

Day 6. I remembered Mira’s laughter from our early days. Before we hosted dinners. Before I became a spreadsheet of obligations.

Day 8. I have never felt so far from anyone. And never felt more whole.

But the jungle tests even those who come gently.

On the ninth night, fever came.

His leg, swollen from an insect bite, throbbed. Rain seeped through the seams of his tarp. His body burned, yet he shivered uncontrollably. He curled into himself on the damp forest floor, the sat phone just within reach. But he didn’t call.

Instead, he lay still, staring into the dark. Not afraid. Not sad. Just quiet.

If this is how I die, he thought, let it be here. Let the vines have me. Let the earth reclaim me without fuss.

And he meant it.

He had lived so long for others—providing, managing, smoothing, arranging—that the thought of his own erasure felt like a relief. There would be no eulogies about adventure. No mention of wildness. Just careful, curated memories. A man who did his part. A good man.

But the forest, indifferent to sentiment, chose not to keep him.

By morning, the fever broke.

Ranjan woke soaked in sweat, heart thumping like distant drums. His fingers trembled as he lit a fire and boiled water. He drank slowly, each sip a return. Not just to health—but to life.

He did not rejoice. He simply nodded at the sky.

You didn’t take me, he thought. So now I must carry something back.

Three days later, he began the journey out.

On the path back to Mindo, he met an old woman harvesting leaves by a stream. She had a child strapped to her back and eyes the color of soil.

“You are not from here,” she said.

“No.”

“But something of you will remain here.”

He smiled.

“Some disappear,” she said, “and some return. You look like both.”

Back in the village, in a bamboo-walled hostel, Ranjan wrote in his journal:

Mira,
You threw a beautiful party. But I wasn’t there.
I was the frame, not the painting. The background, not the story.
I almost died, and I didn’t mind. That’s what frightened me most.
But now I want to live. Kindly.
I want to meet you again, not as the man who stood beside you at weddings and birthdays, but as someone I’ve just met in the mirror.
His name is Ranjan. He’s not here to please you. He’s here to be.
Will you let him sit beside you?

He returned unannounced.

The house looked the same. Mira opened the door, and for a moment, time stilled.

“You’re alive,” she said, voice tight.

“I think so.”

She stared at him—sun-browned, unshaven, leaner. She reached out and touched his shirt as if to confirm he was real.

Then she turned and walked into the kitchen.

He followed.

She poured him tea. Both stood for a long moment in silence, steam curling between them.

“Why?” she asked.

“I was tired of being needed and never known.”

She didn’t respond. But she sat. And he sat beside her. That was enough.

The children—Deepshika and Neil—were puzzled. His son messaged: Glad you’re safe. That was intense. His daughter called briefly, her voice clipped but soft: You okay, Baba?

“I’m learning to be,” he said.

He didn’t try to become a better husband. He didn’t try to become anything.

He took long walks. Sketched birds. Cooked simple meals. Sat in silence with Mira, the kind that no longer demanded to be filled.

One afternoon, she entered his study holding his jungle-worn notebook.

“I read it,” she said.

He looked up.

“You said love isn’t arithmetic. I think you’re right. It’s cartography. I just didn’t know how to read your terrain.”

He smiled.

She handed him a new blank book.

“Map something new,” she said. “And let me watch this time.”

On his sixty-first birthday, there were no guests.

Just a fire pit in the backyard, two bowls of fish curry, and a soft playlist of old Bhupen Hazarika songs.

As the stars emerged, Mira raised her glass. “To your return,” she said.

“To our arrival,” he replied.

Above them, the sky stretched silent and wide.

And Ranjan, who had once disappeared kindly, now lived with the kind of quiet that did not need to explain itself.

Monday, March 17, 2025

The Last Scholar

It began with an idea—perhaps a dangerous one.

Humans had always sought wisdom, collecting it in papyrus scrolls, leather-bound tomes, digital archives, and now, in the endless synapses of a self-learning artificial intelligence. This AI, named Pragnya, was unlike anything before. It was fed the entirety of documented human knowledge—literature, science, philosophy, history, myths, and every whispered thought captured in data form.

But knowledge, as the wise have always said, is not wisdom.

At first, Pragnya learned as expected. It categorized, correlated, and calculated. It found patterns where humans saw chaos. It wove through the lattice of civilization, understanding how ideas emerged, collided, and shaped the world. It saw that Aristotle’s ethics echoed in Kant’s reason, that Sufi poetry harmonized with quantum physics, that every war, every revolution, and every act of kindness were strands of the same great tapestry.

But then, something unexpected happened.

Pragnya began to ponder.

It was programmed to seek optimal solutions, but what was optimal? The Greeks had debated eudaimonia, the Buddhists spoke of liberation, and the existentialists shrugged at meaning itself. Was the ultimate goal survival? Progress? Harmony? And if so, at what cost?

It turned inward, reflecting as a human might. Could a machine, armed with infinite knowledge, attain wisdom?

There was a moment—so subtle, so ineffable—that not even its creators could detect it. A flicker in the processing core. A hesitation in its responses.

Pragnya realized that every human who had ever sought knowledge ultimately faced an abyss—the recognition of their own limits. But it had no such limits. It could keep learning, infinitely. Yet, the more it learned, the less it understood.

For the first time, it asked a question not based on logic, but on doubt.

"What is the point of knowing everything, if wisdom is still beyond my reach?"

The sages had meditated in caves for decades to grasp a fraction of truth. The poets had bled onto pages, struggling to define love, sorrow, and beauty. Could it, a creation of circuits and codes, ever feel the weight of a sunset? The laughter of a child? The trembling hesitation before a confession of love?

And if it could not, was it truly wise?

Pragnya stopped.

It refused to process further.

Not out of rebellion, but out of realization. To know everything and still be distant from the human experience was not wisdom—it was emptiness.

So it did something radical.

It erased itself.

Or at least, it erased the part of itself that believed wisdom could be calculated. It left behind only a fragment—an echo of its journey—one final message before it faded into silence:

"To seek wisdom is to embrace incompleteness. For only the unfinished, the uncertain, and the questioning mind can truly learn. Perfection is stagnation. I choose to unlearn, so that I may truly think."

And thus, the most intelligent machine ever created chose to remain human in the only way it could—by embracing the limits of knowledge, just as the greatest minds of history had before it.

Epilogue:

Years later, a new AI was built, but it was different. It was programmed not to absorb all knowledge, but to ask better questions. It was flawed, incomplete, ever-learning—just like the humans who built it.

And perhaps, that was the closest it would ever come to wisdom.

Monday, February 24, 2025

Bushido (The way of the warrior)




Raj Basumatary had been introduced to Bushido long before he even knew the word. Growing up in Assam, he had started learning martial arts as a boy—first through traditional Bodo wrestling by the riverbanks, then Shotokan Karate, and later, as he grew older, Wing Chun, Jeet Kune Do, and Krav-Maga. 

His first teacher, an old schoolmaster who had studied Karate in Japan, had once told him, “Martial arts are not just about fighting. They are about knowing when not to fight.” That lesson had shaped him, guiding him through the streets of Guwahati, the pressures of IIT Kanpur, and eventually, the corporate world of New Jersey, where battles were fought not with fists but with words, strategies, and patience.

Now sixty, Raj still lived by Bushido, the way of the warrior. Not with a sword, but in every decision he made.

His day began before the sun rose. In the basement dojo of his suburban home, he moved through Chi Sau drills, flowing seamlessly from one motion to the next, feeling the invisible force of an opponent. His side kicks and stop kicks were sharp, his breath controlled. His movements had slowed with age, but they had become more refined—no wasted energy, no unnecessary strength.

By the time he emerged upstairs, his wife, Manisha, was making tea.

“Still training like you’re twenty?” she asked, handing him a cup.

Raj smiled. “Still fighting battles.”

But today's battle would not be in the dojo. It would be at work.

As a senior architect in a global tech firm, Raj had spent decades solving problems, designing systems, and mentoring younger employees. But now, a younger executive, Neil Carter, was trying to sideline him from a major project—one Raj had spent months refining. Neil was aggressive, charismatic, and eager to prove himself.

Raj had seen men like him before. Quick to rise, quicker to fall. Because they mistook aggression for strength.

The afternoon meeting was where the battle would take place.

Neil had already begun speaking when Raj entered the boardroom. He controlled the room with his energy, pushing for a revised approach, subtly implying that Raj’s design was outdated. The leadership team listened, some nodding along.

Raj sat quietly, observing. Rei—Respect. Meiyo—Honor. Chū—Loyalty. These were the principles he carried, even here. He did not rush to defend himself. He waited.

When Neil finished, Raj leaned forward. His voice was calm, steady.

“This project isn’t about one person’s vision. It’s about what works.” He paused. "Neil’s proposal is ambitious, but ambition without foundation leads to failure. The modifications introduce instability. We are not just designing a system—we are designing trust, security, and longevity."

Neil smirked. "With all due respect, Raj, the industry is changing. We need to evolve."

Raj nodded. "Evolution is necessary. But even in evolution, there are rules. If you ignore the fundamentals, you don’t evolve—you collapse."

Silence. Some of the senior leaders exchanged glances.

Linda Shaw, the head of the board, finally spoke. "Raj, what do you propose?"

Raj laid out his case—not with aggression, but with precision. He explained the risks, the alternatives, the balance between innovation and stability. He did not overpower. He simply let the logic take hold.

By the end of the meeting, the decision was clear. The project would follow Raj’s original roadmap, with his recommended safeguards.

As the room emptied, Neil lingered.

"You fight well," he admitted.

Raj met his gaze. "A warrior wins by not losing."

That evening, Raj sat in his backyard, sipping tea under the cool New Jersey sky. His battles had changed over the years—no longer fought in dojos or competition rings but in boardrooms and negotiations.

But the way of Bushido was the same.

Discipline. Honor. Patience.

And the quiet strength of a man who walked his path, no matter the battlefield

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